I’ll admit, 2019 has been a good year for me. I learned a lot and made great improvements to how I was running my business, Confluence and the companies under it, Veesion TV, Veesion Films and Morph Media. However, I still had some low points. Projects lingered, clients took a bit too long to make decisions, lack of motivation, and the problems of raising young kids and having my own personal time, all while trying to run and grow my business. I’ll just say, I had a lot of lessons over the past couple of months. The year hasn’t ended yet and i am still looking forward to some good surprises and maybe learn a few more lessons (I’m hoping that they will be soft lessons this time, not hard ones).
With that said, i’m really doing some thinking and reflecting on the past year (I know this sounds cliché as hell). However, I really did see a problem with how things were progressing, and in the wrong direction. I know this will come to no surprise, but growing any business is hard work and poses many challenges for any entrepreneur. I have always relished the challenges, no matter how tough.
The problem was that I really wasn’t working on or doing anything passionate for the past 8 months. This was a huge red light for me that I should have caught months ago. But I ignored every Indicator that was smacking me in the face every day.
I am someone that needs constant challenges. I have a deep need to push myself. Seek out new challenges, and that me was missing for a greater part of the year.
I needed to make a change. I needed to find something, do something, or create something that put me back on the tracks of the passion train (choo choo). I’ve always enjoyed helping others and selling our continent, Africa as a business and tourist destination when I can, and I think I did from time to time. But finding time can suck. Especially when it comes down to the fact of having to pay the bills over helping out someone who is considering starting their own business. Like, dude, I want to help, but I just can’t right now.
I know…i know…i can hear the comments now, YOU WILL MAKE TIME IF IT WAS IMPORTANT TO YOU, well, guess what, i agree and i will and this is how i am going to do it.
I’m starting started a vlog over the next 3 weeks called, um…um…, i don’t know what i’ll call it just yet, i’ll figure that one out in a couple of days. You guys can help me out by suggesting a name and win something. It will be a vlog that will document my journey as i build Confluence into a truly global IT and Media brand.
It is a bit scary for someone like me, who always prefers to be behind the camera as it where but i’m going to just go ahead, get out of my comfort zone and do it. I also know this will take time away from my day-to-day, and sounds counter-intuitive to everything that I stated above. However, it comes down to the fact that, if I’m not doing and enjoying what I love, why the hell am I doing it. Of course, having no financial concerns and building a successful business would be awesome. But that’s not why I wanted to run my own business (I really need to stop being cliché). Regardless, I started something, and I’m excited about it.
I have big plans and a lot of energy right now, so let’s make the best out of it. And if I can help someone out who’s struggling with the same problems I had, then I have a big cheesy smile and two thumbs up right now.